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"It starts stopping
when it stops stopping"
Forgive the anatomy mistakes and the color quality. The color is my scanners fault- the anatomy is my fault.
I made this for a friend. It's the first of several pictures I'm doing for him. We're trading- I'm giving him art and he's writing me a story. Neat, right?
It's been a while since I've been on deviantart. And I really like posting my art on the internet. But I've had an epiphany. I used to want to be popular on DA... it seemed so important. But now I realize that I don't give a shit anymore. My art will not ever be popular- I won't be an awesome cool artist like klar or vert-is-ninja. I care less and less. My art isn't marketable. It's just...what i make. I don't want to draw cute girls anymore. I don't want to draw people in 'poses'. I don't want to draw anime girls with their perky breasts, pretty eyes and triangle smiles. fake fake fake fake... I was never very good at that, anyways. Maybe that's why I was never very popular. Fuck it all.
I want to draw things that mean something to me. I was once told that using art as a catharsis is bullshit- but I've decided that I'm not talented at technique. Whatever talent I have is only utilized when I try to express my feelings. I'm not good enough to just imagine things.
Maybe things would be different if I pursued art as a career. But I don't think I can do that. Instead, I pursue a career based on collaboration. Theater is an effort of many people. I think that's more healthy for me than the self absorbed mindgames of art. I'm not trying to offend professional artists....that's just what it would be like if I took up the job. A sick self-indulgent and isolated pity-fest.
I'm bitter about DA, but thankful to the people who always give me great feedback.
, 
, 
I really appreciate it, even though I'm not good at replying. It's nice to know that somebody sees this stuff.
Anyways, I think that's it. I offically give up anime, and I hope I begin a new era of myself.
Media: Watercolor paper, india ink, and my new birthday quill pens.
Time: an afternoon
when it stops stopping"
Forgive the anatomy mistakes and the color quality. The color is my scanners fault- the anatomy is my fault.
I made this for a friend. It's the first of several pictures I'm doing for him. We're trading- I'm giving him art and he's writing me a story. Neat, right?
It's been a while since I've been on deviantart. And I really like posting my art on the internet. But I've had an epiphany. I used to want to be popular on DA... it seemed so important. But now I realize that I don't give a shit anymore. My art will not ever be popular- I won't be an awesome cool artist like klar or vert-is-ninja. I care less and less. My art isn't marketable. It's just...what i make. I don't want to draw cute girls anymore. I don't want to draw people in 'poses'. I don't want to draw anime girls with their perky breasts, pretty eyes and triangle smiles. fake fake fake fake... I was never very good at that, anyways. Maybe that's why I was never very popular. Fuck it all.
I want to draw things that mean something to me. I was once told that using art as a catharsis is bullshit- but I've decided that I'm not talented at technique. Whatever talent I have is only utilized when I try to express my feelings. I'm not good enough to just imagine things.
Maybe things would be different if I pursued art as a career. But I don't think I can do that. Instead, I pursue a career based on collaboration. Theater is an effort of many people. I think that's more healthy for me than the self absorbed mindgames of art. I'm not trying to offend professional artists....that's just what it would be like if I took up the job. A sick self-indulgent and isolated pity-fest.
I'm bitter about DA, but thankful to the people who always give me great feedback.
, , I really appreciate it, even though I'm not good at replying. It's nice to know that somebody sees this stuff.
Anyways, I think that's it. I offically give up anime, and I hope I begin a new era of myself.
Media: Watercolor paper, india ink, and my new birthday quill pens.
Time: an afternoon
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That's so sweet that you mentioned me *heart* Yeah, I am so bitter about DA I finally took all my stuff down. Mostly the ads and the subscription obsession DA gives everyone. It just seems far too commercial. Almost 3 years ago, when I joined, it was different. But now it is all about commercialism I think. I've always admired you and your art because you seem to be so genuine, like you're not trying to be an impressive person or artist, but you are! I'm not just being stupidly sweet, either, and I know if you think about my past comments you'll realize that. What you call "technique", what you say you're not good at, seems confusing! You seem to have mastered all SORTS of techniques!!!! I have always been SO FUCKING IMPRESSED with the diversity in your art, in every medium. I'm glad you're still here. Sorry I'm not commenting as fast or as much as I used to, but being so uninvolved things here pile up. Just know that you are a permanent member of my watch list, even after I cut almost EVERYONE. I think you are grand.
Also, a few years ago I had my reaction against anime, too. I've since come to accept it into my cartoonist technique, but I am always haunted, always, by the old desire to make the waist smaller, and the head, hands and boobs bigger. Still, I think the popularity of anime has enabled it mobility it needs to develop as a more serious art, even if it is just cartoony. Even though the shit multiplies faster than the good stuff, it's allowing a market for the good stuff. I hope after the fad-flood of anime clears, the good stuff can be sifted out of the mud. Anyway, stay hopeful. And know you are awesome. I'm gonna keep picking at these 200+ deviations! XD
Also, a few years ago I had my reaction against anime, too. I've since come to accept it into my cartoonist technique, but I am always haunted, always, by the old desire to make the waist smaller, and the head, hands and boobs bigger. Still, I think the popularity of anime has enabled it mobility it needs to develop as a more serious art, even if it is just cartoony. Even though the shit multiplies faster than the good stuff, it's allowing a market for the good stuff. I hope after the fad-flood of anime clears, the good stuff can be sifted out of the mud. Anyway, stay hopeful. And know you are awesome. I'm gonna keep picking at these 200+ deviations! XD